I was re-reading the entry below... "...what is wrong with me" ...you want to know the scarey thing?
... I don't remeber writing that.
it's funny I usually forget ((probably block)) the times I'm most depressed but I can't remeber writing that.... oh well not like it matters to you all...
**sigh** Phil-sama is going to be gone all spring breakyyuuuuu.... Dominican Republic Vacation.... ..... I'm missing him allready- what will I do this summer when he's gone 6 weeks? In Japan?
With all those pretty Japanese girls who are so much cooler than me?
I'm so scared....
but I should trust him right? I should love him for whatever he chooses right?!!!
I'm so tired and depressed the screen is swiming before my eyes.. I think I need to go to sleep.
[Nikko signed off @ 10:37 P of M]